Diva Daze 4

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Quote ” I am glad that I have a wife I love”

Well now, that just about makes me wanna cry.  I am so glad that I have a man who loves me so fiercly.   He only wants the best for me and can’t understand why I don’t want that for myself.     What?    Of course I do.  Don’t I?

You see I am a little over weight and have been my entire adult life.   My inner Diva keeps trying to come out but she always seems to fall short of achieving  her goals.

I have fought and fought my way through my food process for years.  I Have tried every pill known to man (and some known to animals, just kidding) and every fad diet that has come down the line.   Of course everything worked while I was doing it.  But see that’s the catch, you have to keep doing it.

I have decided to go back to the beginning, where all this food eating, exercising crap started for me.   I was a VERY fit teenager , active and happy
I do remember I had a very big appetite and never once did I think I would not be able to keep that wonderful habit all through my adult life.

So, I am yet again trying something off the wall to achieve my goals.   I am going back to meet my younger self on a weekly basis.   We are working through all my concerns one by one, peeling back the layers to help one cope with the other.    So far I am loving it.   I have told my younger self “jealousy gets you NO where”( and is not very attractive either).  I have tackled my fear of following through and being afraid to try new things and get out there and enjoy life.   I found my “little bratty self”, smacked her around some and then had a long talk and gave her a time out.

What I am doing is hypnosis.  No not your put me under and change my mind hypnosis.   More of the the relax me and take me back in time.  Make me feel my emotions and experiences from the past to shed the healing light on why I am the way I am.  You can’t fix the why until you find the when you became how you are.

It’s all very simple.  It’s not a cure, just a step on a ladder to help you climb out of your gloom to become your best self ever.   I am working out now and eating better, remembering that life is short and time does not stop to wait until you are ready.   My inner Diva says its time to shine again, I so love shiny things.

Have a good Daze……….